Gay World Cup rugby referee Nigel Owens has revealed that he attempted suicide and considered chemical castration when he realised he was gay.
Speaking on Radio 4’s Desert Island Discs, he told presenter Kirsty Young that he approached a doctor about chemical castration because he did not want to be gay.
He also admitted to attempting to take his own life. “I cried that night and realised that I had to grow up,” he said.
He also added that growing up in Carmarthenshire, Wales, being gay felt “totally alien” to him.
Owens came out publicly in 2007, after he had come out to his mother and father.
“I was brought up to be honest, and here I was lying to the most important person in my life,” he told Kirsty Young.
“Unless you are happy with who you are, you cannot excel and be the best you can be at whatever you are doing. You cannot enjoy life if you are not happy within yourself.”