In a new interview in Variety magazine, Miley Cyrus talks about her own personal journey to come to terms with her own sexuality.
Growing up, Cyrus said she did not feel straight or gay, but the term bisexual wasn’t the right choice for her either.
“My whole life, I didn’t understand my own gender and my own sexuality,” she told the publication. “I always hated the word ‘bisexual,’ because that’s even putting me in a box. I don’t ever think about someone being a boy or someone being a girl … My eyes started opening in the fifth or sixth grade. My first relationship in my life was with a chick.”
When she got more involved in the LGBT community, she started to better understand herself.
“I went to the LGBTQ center here in L.A., and I started hearing these stories,” says Cyrus. “I saw one human in particular who didn’t identify as male or female,” she continued. “Looking at them, they were both: beautiful and sexy and tough but vulnerable and feminine but masculine. And I related to that person more than I related to anyone in my life. Even though I may seem very different, people may not see me as neutral as I feel. But I feel very neutral. I think that was the first gender-neutral person I’d ever met. Once I understood my gender more, which was unassigned, then I understood my sexuality more. I was like, ‘Oh — that’s why I don’t feel straight and I don’t feel gay. It’s because I’m not.'”
When she discovered that indeed she was pansexual, she struggled with coming out to her family. But she knew “the universe has always given me the power to know I’ll be OK. Even at that time, when my parents didn’t understand, I just felt that one day they are going to understand.”
Only recently, while Miley was working as a judge on The Voice, did her mom finally realize what she had gone through.
“On The Voice, this young girl started crying when she left, because I’m the reason she came out,” Cyrus explained. “My mom started crying. She was like, ‘I’m so sorry about the way I was when you were that age and coming out.’ She never understood me until she saw that girl who couldn’t be herself. It was very cool.”