Ronda Rousey’s loss against Holly Holm at the UFC Bantamweight Championships was a huge upset with many people, especially given that it was such a resounding defeat for Ronda.
Now, she spoke frankly about the effect this defeat had on her with Ellen DeGeneres. Ronda revealed that she “was literally there and thinking about killing myself” and also that her brain “stopped working” until the next day.
She continued, teary eyed: “What am I any more if I’m not this? I’m like ‘I’m nothing, what do I do anymore and no one gives a s**t about me anymore without this.’ To be honest I looked up and I saw my man Travis [UFC heavyweight fighter Travis Browne] was standing up there and I looked up at him and I was like, I need to have his babies. I need to stay alive. I don’t know if I would’ve made it without him.”
Ronda has kept relatively quite since her defeat, as she was undoubtedly covering from the heavy beating she took at the hands of Holly. Many have wondered why Ronda, who had quickly made a name for herself by swiftly defeating all her opponents before then, had lost so easily.
According to Ronda, her grueling schedule was a key factor.
“One thing that was different was that it was my third title fight in nine months, and I don’t think anyone has ever attempted that before. I kind of felt tired. I’ve been more tired. I was knocked out the first time I got hit. It’s hard to know what’s going on. In that first hit I cut open my whole mouth and I knocked my teeth loose.
“I had no perception. I felt like I couldn’t see. I could see but I couldn’t see how far my hand was from my face. I was swinging blindly. I knew she was out there, but like I really don’t remember most of it. So I was trying my best to kind of hide the fact that I wasn’t even there anymore. My brain stopped working properly.”